05
Jul

Long Lost (maybe there’s no coming back)

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Reading it once again
It feels like we’ve done it fine
but still it feels like we’re taking that road again

Maybe, I wasn’t really a part of you
Mercy, might be as I comprehend every letters on the paper
I mustn’t blame you for that

I’m sorry for caring about you.
I’m just trying hard for ours to get back
but I seems like everything is just making it worse.

Your voice is too expensive that you really keep it.
That silence rings on my ears intensely
but I just can’t help myself but to care about you.

I know that sorry was trashed, so 3 years.
Waiting for us to speak again
I’ll just reminisce the papers we’ve shared.

Trying hard to find a place inside you
because you’ve scattered our moments,
maybe that has never reach you.

Hoping for coming back

14
Jun

Tugtugtak

By Ernesto 0 Comments
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Wala akong magawa eh..
Sa ngayon gusto ko lang pumindot..wahehe

HAAYY..
nababagot na ako, gusto ko na talagang magkaroon ng SLR o TLR.
parang walang kabuhay-buhay pag wala akong bagong kuhang litrato…

Kung iistemahin, sa fim na ako. WAHEHE
ang mahal nga lang ng film scanner ng Nikon. Okey sana kung libong piso lang eh, kaso libong dolyar. TUGUDUNG!

Kaya go nalang ako sa Canon.

Sana maabot din ng kamay ko ang mga vintage na film cams. (Sa lahat ng taong nais na tumulong, naghahagilap ako ng mga lumang camera)

haist!

kaso wala din akong pera eh. yun nga lang.
habambuhay nalang ako mangangarap na makahawak nun..
gusto ko ng magkapera. kainis..

….

14
Apr

the walls, the eye, the words, the road, the falling, it was in the second

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Last sight..
cannot talk straight
the walls between us
hides what I feel while
moments, eaten by silence…

your eyes…
the affections..
the beats are too fast…
but still
the voices don’t come out

as I ask,
I can’t move
I can hardly breathe
I’m afraid
I was afraid
because someday
you’ll walk away

your first goodbye
was said
I tried
I tried to reach
your presence
between the walls
of the corridor

You’re still
reachable by the eyes
I know it’s the end
I run for my selfishness
and try to reach you
by the hand

I tried to conceal
from your eyes
I tried
to walk gently
for I’m afraid
if you’ll be startled

I’ve overtake the speed
I’d to take all
the risk
just to see
your walks
for the last time

I still
follow your path
so I could watch
how this will be
as I walk
behind your presence

Too many
for me to
get you ears
The fear you caused me
turned into selfishness

I’ve wait
for you to be alone
so I could say
what’s really meant

I ran fast
I still don’t mind
that you’ll not be
as I thought

I was able
to reach you by the hand
but it doesn’t reflect the
words you said
What should I expect?
one thing but nothing
but I was so selfish
to tell all

Standing beside the running wheels
Some eyes are stared to us
I tried to pretend
that I won’t get hurt
as I said
those thoughts
to you

At last
you’re able to understand
but what I get
was your end
….
The light and dark disappeared
as I heard it

It repeats on my brain
infinitely
and I said it’s okay
for I know
and I ended to hide my innocence

I still tried to
take back
I tried to reach you again
but that was the end

You
you still don’t look back
but why should I expect?
my last sight for you
as I reach you by the eyes

The day ended..
The words
are still in me
Maybe it’ll not fade
for your answers are all I’ve waited
that time

I walk the second day
with nothing to keep
but the words
that I heard
and the longing
of my eyes to see you
but it was the end

09
Apr

Tragedies between the rays of the summer sunset

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Was my conscience again

Reckless mind cause meaningless walk
Don’t really know where..
Reasons are so thin for you to talk
Patiently standing pretending you’re there

Eyes saw the intricacy
Opposite thoughts were kept out of mind
Hopelessly wishing your eyes could see
How I was eager to see you behind the blinds

I was not able to expound my heart
Knowing yours will not listen
Slowly my presence breaks apart
Between your words you’ve dissect it wide open

I walked without being filled with that moment
Moments I’ve wish, but I knew will not happen
I walked at the place, where I can recall and listened
The sorry you have said within that same sunset

12
Mar

Untitled, March 12, 2009, 8:50 P.M. Thursday

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Another day in the sixth
Another mistake I have done
Eyes that looked with
The song has just begun

It seems like cursing on the past
The passion I should be apt is still a no for me
I should not pry you that night
I just don’t understand myself

I hope I could find the real way
Maybe someday, I know you’ll not stay
It hurts that someone will just fade it away
I’m still trying to act like it’s okay

-E 2009

20
Nov

Jealousy

By Ernesto 0 Comments
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Bakit hindi na
Iba na ba
ang lugar ko…

Pinilit, inaalam
ko ang mga dahilan mo..
Kahit na madalas
at hindi mapigilang
mapag-isa

Hindi na malaman
ang pagtakbo ng isip mo..
Hindi na makuha
kung paano tumitubok ang puso mo

Malamang ay nakalimutan mo na
o siguro’y kinalumutan na
Di ko nasabing
Mahal kita
Kaya nagsisisi
dahil huli na…

Pero kahit ganun na
Ako’y patuloy na umaasa
Dahil minsa’y inibig kita
Kaya para sa’yo
Ang sarili ko’y aking itataya

15
Nov

Thnk nd ht

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I think now, reading this may not possible to you!!
For now I can post everything I want to!! but I want you to see this…
I’m too pissed off by this affection you caused me…
Then it became the hate I’ll put to you

You don’t know how did I suffered for believing…
I’ve been such a fool to think about it…and it ruined me
I didn’t think that you’ll be the one that will release the fool inside of me…
That I want to get mad so much at myself…

You didn’t know how much I bled…
You didn’t know how did I cried…
You didn’t know how many times I put my ears
On the stereo when I knew…

I didn’t expect that you’ll use me
and you don’t know how much it hurt
For now I will keep my lips zipped…
Keep my eyes straight and continue to recover

11
Nov

OK!..another crap!

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Another day folks! I been dying to reach home early for sleeping sessions because the days are soo!!, busy.. What’s happening? Well, there are too many things to be arranged now..

I feel so affected…but I guess!, Yeah! moving on (oh!, not me!). Finally, new, new, and new…three news!!..

I guessed that I was to hollow for it, for that thing..

Oh!, I remembered that question..Which do you prefer?

blah blah blah…B was chosen, I choosed letter A
Ok, I admit…I learned to love, to breathe, to live again and you were the reason…but BOOM!, I heard something, there’s one waiting

B was executed, and shot through the main target…(Help me, I’m bleeding)
Since that day, I was so disappointed, to myself…It made me somewhat OPTIMISTIC, but I realized, “this is not me.”

Fortunately, I was able to go back to that idiotic characteristics…I learned to find my weaknesses..

I woke up each morning dealing with some lies I learned to beLIEve…I know my limitations, I’m ugley, I’m an idiot, I suck more than anyone, I’m a disgrace to my peers…so how can I believe to my lies…

I admit that I used to believe them, It made a big change…a wrong change…views, presses, and more presses..

A little handworks and crappy thinking also…

I thought that…..yea it is just a dream
How I wished that both of us could see the bells, silks, the petals…
Walking into that piece of cloth…towards the cross…
Because I used to believe that lie…

I loved you, I don’t know if you loved me..haha…

I know you’ll be safe between the walls separating us..
I’ll be always just as what I am…
I am sorry if I can’t reached what did you expect..

In this work, I said the things…
but…you may not have time to read it…

10
Nov

This maybe yours…your farewell

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I think this will be the time..
For your fair goodbye..
For the past days you’re fine
I don’t know some reasons, I don’t know who’s to cry..

You can say anything about me
You can curse me if you want..
I know it from the first time I feel
The strong pull that carries me away from myself

I can’t blame you for what do you want now..
You’ve got to follow what you feel
There’s still some things left unsaid…
Like what is inside of me..

09
Nov

Sayang

By Ernesto 0 Comments
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Ako pa ba yun?

Alam mo..di ko na alam kung bakit parang anlayo na natin…
bakit parang hindi na katulad ng dati…o baka ako nagbago?

Ako naman ata may pagkukulang sa’yo…
Wala naman kasi akong makitang mali sa mga nagawa mo..
Sana naman sabihin mo sa kin kung bakit nagkaganun…

Wala na ata kong pwesto sayo…O kahit kailan hindi talaga ako nagkaroon ng parte sa buhay mo…

Sayang naman yung dating pagsasama…
Gusto kong manumbalik sa dati ang ating naging panahon..

Masaya kitang nakakausap kahit sa kamay…

Naglalakad habang nagtatawanan sa daan…
Kahit na paulit ulit..
Kahit na marami ng naiinis…
patuloy pa din ang paglakad natin…

Hanggang sa magpapaalam ka na…

Ngayon naman…Hindi na kita halos makausap..
Parang hangin nalang ako pag nasa paligid ako…

Masakit isipin na hindi mo na ako pinapansin…
Bakit nga ba?
Hindi ko man lang alam ang mga dahilan mo..

Sana malaman ko…

Pipilitin kong magbago….
Kung kailangan

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